Chasing memories

Hello, is there anybody here?? I feel like I come back to this blog time to time to kick it and see if it's still breathing. I see so many bloggs I followed to be absent too. But it's kinda nice to see they are still there, despite not being active. The content in them is kinda nostalgic. I remember how we were some kind of little comunity, when the instagram and tiktok were not there yet. My last post here dates 2017... and it's 2022 summer now. So much happened. So much changed. And now I came to look at myself. The ME before all that. Before my horrible brake down in 2015. Before the covid, before the war... This sounds so bizarre... But here I am. I wonder how many of you are still out there...

                         Hello, it's me

I still have my Etsy shop.

I still craft, draw and even sew. 

I have a dog now. Well, we have a dog :D 

                     And we are happy.

Serpents you can carry around

I was working on these adorable pendants whole last week :)
It started, when I got a custom order for a pendant including snakes. I decided to practice them and the idea if more simple pendants of curled snakes came into my mind.

They are made out of polymer clay and  are really light. I paint them with silver paint to make them more realistic. 

Look at this sweet little fella ❤❤❤😙

They will be curling on your chest all the time.

They all are available at my shop www.etsy.com/shop/deadlycherries. So don't be shy and take a look ;)

Back to life

Hello my darlings.
I want to thank you all for support you showed. You can't imagine how wonderful it felt to find your comments telling me that it will be ok. I cant' thank you enough, but, THANK YOU!!!
It's one thing to know and to hope that it will be ok. But it's really nice to hear it from some one else... I kept silent about this situation of my and didn't let my family to find it out.  I didn't want to look weak or "not looking realistic at things". But these were time when everything blurred out and there was no good or right... just terrible. I still get "sad"...lets call it "sad"... But it's easier to get back to reality now.
I changed my look...I cut my hair... I got my normal eating habits back... I started interact more... And even started taking zumba fitness classes...
Maybe because it's spring and the nature itself is all magical... maybe because enough time has passed and wounds are starting to heal... I'm just catching up with myself. Meeting old friend helps a lot.

So, I'm kinda back :)

Nice things come after bad ones

Oh my, another month has passed :D oh, it was whole two???.. Time sure flies fast. All half of year seems like a month to me. Crazy crazy, but beautiful month. With some losses...some finds... and things to think about.

Well, the losses... I'm single again. As much as I want to contemplate on it, I must move on. I loved this human the deepest. But love itself is not always enough. But thanks to this time I learned some things about myself. I still love... I just don't ask anything in return.  And expect nothing. I just sit and watch how it all melts away. It's like a fire that you simply stop kindle one day and just sit and watch how it  goes out little by little depending on how big it was made.

Some finds.... Well there are quite a lot of those. My new room mate, that I really like. Not to interested in my life but understand my obsession with bj dolls, oriental culture and doesn't care for bats on every corner in our flat :D Always up for a good chat or a movie...and some vine :)

Also my new doll. Limited beauty from Soom. Got it this summer, never had a chance to brag :D

Soom Ender Dream Walker

Just look at those nails!!! <3 Must love those :3

As demon lord he demanded blood sacrifice right away...

He still has no face up but I'm going to paint him like my first anime crush Lord Sesshomaru from anime Inu Yasha :P

Another find is my lovely new bag that has everything I wanted in one :D It's perfect in every way :D

Got it from Banned. I love those little skulls on the fabric :D

It has long handle as well so you can wear it as shoulder bag. 

Next is my new favorite artist Chiara Bautista. Check out her Facebook ;) I just love her.  And it had nothing to do with me trying to eat my heart out... Well maybe a little :p

Ok. I think it's enough for this time. I promise to get back by another week. I really do ;)

Happy New Years everyone!!!

 Happy New Years everyone!!! I hope you great them in your best mood. Me and my mate went to an alternative club to celebrate. There was an event called "Dance Macabre Masquerade". Few band supposed to play at this event but at the last moment they were called of because one of the member got injured and went to hospital... I still wonder why both band got canceled instead of one. All that left were DJ's. But we decided to attend it anyway. The music range was elector/industrial/synthpop/EBM. I'm not a big fan of those style but we decide to spend our time have fun and we did it :) We danced like crazy! Let's not forget the outfits. We did our best I think to keep the dress code "dress to impress" :D Here is couple of photos... and it was taken after we came back from the party, so have that in mind :D

We finally could wear those horns I ordered a year ago. We didn't stayed to long. Just enough for as to have fun :) electro and synth genders of music seem little bit boring to me. Some good old school would have made us to stay for longer :D I do like nice industrial metal  bands though...
So, the last year went gone now and lets great the 2014!!!!

Going raw...

So, everything started when a mutual friend of ours started to work as chef at raw  restaurant. At first I was like "this is not lasagna if it has no pasta and how are these spaghetti if there is no spaghetti?" But I knew  that it all was just for checking the new waters. We spend the evening talking about raw food and watching  raw recipes on you tube. The evening ended by me making a raw spread from seeds and veggies I had at the moment. It was damn delicious. So that all week I ate raw spreads with everything :D I found out about cashew cream and almond milk and got more and more obsess with idea that I want to eat like that. I was thinking about getting food processor and blender... just thinking until I got this book from my aunt for Christmas :D

"Healthy and delicious Raw cocktails, smoothies and other non-alcoholic drinks"

And I believe that my aunt got it for me because it's a good looking book for as long as I know she is not into raw food culture :D But for me it was a push.

Well, I already ordered my food processor and shaker. It will be in one week. I can't wait to get my hands on it. I do believe that all my emotional mood swings are due to bad diet ( word "diet" describes the sum of food you eat and it doesn't specifically mean not eating for weight loosing purpose).

I'm more exited that I'll get opportunity to try new recipes that are easy to make and are delicious as well as get nutrient and vitamins I need since all our veggies were backed or boiled. And not many good stuff are left after that. Basically I'm letting my body to have what it is craving for and it is craving for raw food like mad. 

Other good thing is that while my mate will be cooking his measl I will not have to wait till the stove will be free to use it and will be able to prepare my meal at the same time so we could enjoy dinner time together. 

Basically it's a new fun thing for me. Not sure how long it will last. I'm not going vegan. I'll just be eating my vegetables and fruits raw. I'm especially happy that there is a healthy replacement for all those cupcakes and cakes. 

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Look at these!!!

I also have a secret desire to surprise my mother with all this tasty cooking that I know she would love.

I tried  raw beetroots chips and they are amazingly tasty!! Just look at the color of this smoothie of beetroots:D

I have just a perfect glass for this bloody red drink >:)

I like that this new obsession gives me positive emotions. It's fun and that is really important for me ;)

I guess next post will be about me shaping seed bread into coffins and serving it with perfectly red raw tomatoes spread :D Oh, the space for imagination :D

 So...

I would appreciate if anyone who has experience in eating raw would share their mind ;)

Black cats sits where they want

I used to have this "altar" kind of thing that is not an altar just something arranged by me using "this looks nice" rule :D It used to be on the window of the living room and my cat used to walk all over it making me feel somehow uneasy, because maybe sometimes I do light a incense in this particular space for non particular reasons... or when I feel uneasy. All those candles in sparkling glasses makes me feel relax and calm. And so she kept contemn this lovely arrangement of mine till I decided to move it to another room. To my bedroom. I just went for a second to pick something else and here she was...  I guess I got her permission. She is calmly siting next to it and not on it :D

I do love how everything looks at the evening when I turn off the light and only candles are left to burn in my lovely red crystal goblets.

Little secrets

This post was sitting in a draft post for  some time. I decided to at least share the video it had. I'm not ready for more honesty jet.

Lately I start to  notice how much we are brainwashed by commercials and society when it comes to a woman image. It's like a big program that is being constantly installed. Be sexy and attractive. Ant at the same moment they give the point of what sexy and attractive is. And I think we all unconsciously or not are following it. 

It is a good video. I recommend to watch it. And that is totally true. Some how we always think bad about our self. And it makes me sad when I know how fucking beautiful  people that are close to me are. And  I know that some of them does't feel like that. And sorry if you already saw it :)

 

Watch it ;) And let it sink :)

Photo shoot for the shop

The weather is perfect, cloudy and rainy! That's my summer!!! And there is no irony. I really like it. It's like warm autumn. I hope it will last till winter like that :D It kills me when it's hot.

So... not much news. Not much news I would want to share maybe. Sometimes I get all personal and these are the days when I think that we put to much of our personal life on the net. Never know what creep is fallowing you :)

Me and my friend who has a shop on Etsy decided to make a photo shoot. I was her model and she was mine. I think the result is not so bad since we both are noobs on modeling... It's one thing to make selfies and other to pose for someone :D So here's a set we made for my shop :)

The necklaces a a little bit longer in reality, but since she is a gifted girl we had to make them look a little  shorter ;)

My friend has a soutache accessories shop.  Soutache is a French word thought to have been first used in the mid 1800's. It comes from the Hungarian word sujtas, which means braid used for trimming. Another word for soutache is galloon, which is also French and comes from the 16th century. It is derived from gallonner and means to embellish or adorn with lace.The threads used to make a soutache come in many colors and are often made of natural fabrics such as silk and wool. Synthetic and semi-synthetic fibers such as rayon may also be used as well as metallic threads of silver or gold. As military styles go in and out of fashion, the decorative braids may be seen adorning jackets and coats as well as epaulets, fabric or metal trim sewn onto a garment's shoulders.

I tried to look neutral, since her jewelry is not in the Gothic category. Some photos are a little burned out. So here's some.

So tell me what do you think about this amateur photo shoot of ours :D 

Gothisize your sunglasses

So, I bought these sun glasses once at my old workplace. They costed only 2 dollars and I thought "why not".

 They are those big plastic glasses with wide legs (if that's a word to use) :D The shades go from dark purple to light grey. Today looking at them I got and idea to pimp them a little bit. I always wanted a casual glasses with ankh o pentacle, and it cameo to me suddenly... that I just can glue the pentacle to the frame of it :D

 And that's what I did.

 Hello new sunglasses!

And how do I look?? :D I would prefer little ankh but I only got big ones at the moment. But as soon as I'll order smaller ones, I'm glueing them to my other sunglasses :D